A Yarn About Running.
As I tie my running shoes and head out my door, I set my intentions for my run. Is this an interval run, a pace challenge, a hill run? Or is this simply a run because I need it? Am I running because I feel obligated to or because I want to? These questions set the tone for the run as a whole.
Tonight, I ran because I needed it like bananas need peanut butter. I ran because my muscles were tight and sore from my relay last weekend (more on that in my next post.) I ran because it was my therapy.
I haven't written in a while. Fact. Now, I could sit here and give you all kinds of justifiable excuses. But that's just it, they're excuses. School, work, relationships, board exams, the dog ate my keyboard...excuses. The real reason I haven't blogged about running, cupcakes, and happiness is because I'd lost the groove.
I've said this more than once, I find my best inspiration for writing after I've had a good run. And, I simply have not been putting in the time needed to have good runs, to find that inspiration. Yes, I've been running. But, they have not been the feel good runs where magic happens.
Those runs are what make everything else worthwhile. The magic is when everything just falls into place. Your mind isn't telling you to stop with every step forward. You aren't worried about time. Or pace. Or distance. You just run. Magic.
It is on those magic runs that I have the best mental clarity.
A side note: You know when you have a skein of yarn that you didn't bother to roll into a pretty ball? As you use it to knit or crochet, the skein becomes this tangled bunch of yarn. A messy mass of string. The more you tug on it, the worse it gets.
That is how my brain feels before a run. Tangled with the day's stresses, worries, and the ever-present to do list. It is tangled with thoughts of everything else I should be doing besides running. It is tangled with guilt that I haven't been more consistent. It is tangled with every bit of negative self-talk tinged with anxiety.
It is not until I'm a couple miles into my run that I can feel those knots start to loosen. I can feel that silly, negative voice in the back of my head start to calm down. The muscle tightness starts shaking loose. The daily stresses start to shake themselves off.
It is so often on these runs that I find myself living in the moment. Once the tangles have been undone and I finally have a pretty ball of yarn. It is then that I can keep my inner voice calm, focus on my breathing, and be thankful for the privilege to run.
This is how today's run felt. Magic.
This yarn about running can really be summed up this way:
Before Run = Sad Jess.
After Run = Happy Jess.
And sometimes, it just takes a small reminder to motivate us to keep going.
Set your intentions. Find the magic. Not every run is going to be great. But, remember that a run brings cupcakes, unicorns, and rainbows. Or an untangled mass of yarn. Your choice, really.